simplebit-15-fcuked up.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
We had our english lesson today in the comp lab,did a online survey .
Kai Juan came over and ask miie something.
I was in shock.
I went to read a person blog and i felt fed up even though i read that bloody blog's post for a million times and also knowing things are not going right.
What fucking pissed miie off was:
" am i some kinda dumbass or stupid moronic idiot.
letting you guys being throw around like some kinda toy.
enough is enough, i am a human. NOT A TOY! "
In the first place,no one fuckingly treat YOU as a toy nor no one was THROWing YOU around.
Perharps the interaction between miie and she let YOU felt so but if we,miie or her treated YOU as a bloody fool or a toy,for goodness sake,YOU will be treated worst than a "hi-bye" friend.
YOU said that YOU accepted that i've changed.
Hey dude,i bloody knows that i've changed alright?
At least i've even told other people about what and how,i realised i've changed.
At least i accepted the fact that i did changed for the worst and neglected a lot of things and people around mie.
At least i learn to try and accept negative thoughts and reflect on myself.
AT LEAST i learn to care about other's feelings and i don't say words that directly hurt people deep into their bones!
but what about you?
have YOU realised what wrong?
have YOU took note of what's happening?
have YOU realised that your words or action often hurt others both directly and indirectly?
have YOU ever ever ever reflectd on yourself and what others say about you?
I'm not trying to say i'm very good or that i fully understand others,what they say and what they do.
I'm not trying to show as if i'm very imperial.
I'm not trying to say/ show that i'm fully right and not in any wrong.
I know that i have my bad points too and at times i get very irritating and can get too much at times.
You often put the blame on others when things happen and have you reflected if any of it happened because of you too?
You blame HER to be the "third-party" between us?
HELLO! get some sense into you!
i knew her since sec 1 alright?
and you said that i having back stabbing you?
tell miie what i've done,what i've said to back stabb you?
i know that i've been very unfair and always complain to Her how i'm not happy about you.
You call that back stabbing ?
fuck.
i know that i've neglected you mostly because i spend more time with her than you and we both have more topic to talk about jus lik what you say, we are both of the same level..
wtf.you bloody spoilt my whole day's mood.