simplebit-24-why can't we have a time machine and go back to the past?
Monday, December 10, 2007
i wish that this christmas i'll get a time machine as a present.
its unrealistic, yet i want to turn back time.
going back will not help to make any difference, but i still want to take a risk and hold back what i cherish most and the person i love most.
i don't know why, till now, it still hurts for me to see even if it's just some pictures and other people's say.
the scar there can't be undone even with a new relationship and new guy who stands most of my life now.
he can't replace you and no one will,nor can anyone make me forget you.
i'm sorry to be holding back my feelings for you and loving him, but i can't let go.
i know im selfish.
pictures gets the mind thinking wild and the words get spreaded around.
i saw this pic with you and her, lying side by side,sleeping.
how am i suppose to feel when im lookin at the picture?
you may not like/love her anymore, BUT the pictures shows more than that!
i love you yet i love him too,i hate myself.
i can't even stand my friend compliment on him.
im hopeless over love.
im holding on now and hiding thing away form him bcasue i don't wan to end it while it's on its way to forever.
perharps i'll say goodbye when it's time for me to go.
it' unfair but i don't know why everything just makes me go crazy.
it's either let me love you again or teach me to let go.
i want to be alone and give myself some breathing space.
i don't wan to grieve over love yet tears just flow freely without control.
i don't know how he feels if he were to read this post.
i think he knows that i'm hiding things from him but he just doesn't want to make things go the other way round.
it's unfair, the way im treating him.
it's unfair, how much more i love you.
it's unfair, how much i cherish things more in the past.
it's unfair..
it hurts..
let me go. will you? will he?
im feeling damn down now, and emo-ing.
i hate it.
falling again and again over the same person,samn things.